GRUBER IN AMERICA

I'm devastated about what happened yesterday, though I knew it was coming. Even if you know something horrible and dreadful and just...

Recently, I signed a "consent for sterilization" so I could get my ovaries out. This was interesting to me only in that I've never...

I am writing this on the eve of my 46th birthday, so that on my actual birthday I can immerse myself in Book III without the temptation...

Tomorrow I will be 46. I have never been the type of person to hide her age. I am proud of my age. I’ve been proud of every age I’ve been...

Happy Father’s Day, reader, if it means anything to ya. I still have my father, what a gift, and he is a good man, an interesting person,...

Yesterday I got what was, God willing, my last Lupron injection. It’s not that the Lupron (to shut down my ovaries) was bad. On the...

"Nice block quotes," I commented on a Favorite Former's FB status update this morning. For the sake of this post, I'll call said Favorite...

Ain’t got much these days, but I’ve got rock n’ roll, and all the cancer meds I could ever dream of (or not), and plants. Lots and lots...

There’s this really cornball song from the 70s (I think) called, “I Want To See The Bright Lights Tonight.” And it’s been on constant...

One of the unexpected blessings of this difficult period in my life is a return to time for reading. Not reading student papers. Not...

A friend is very sick. A very close friend. An “inner circle” friend. An essential friend. Cancer. Rare. Aggressive. Head and neck. What...

Went to a Memorial Day/Graduation gathering this weekend. Sat at a table outside, in the garden, for a while before a three-year-old came...

*Disclaimer: This is a post about my own personal experience among the American Ascetics. Alcohol was gonna kill me. Straight up. I’d...

Ever since the massacre, I begin my daily meditations with twenty-two tones on my sound bowl, one for each of the dead in Texas. This...

As of this writing all the news media reports is that fourteen children and a teacher were murdered in school today when the 18 year-old...

I have made a life in “The Arts” –specifically the literary/English language “arts,” but also in The Arts, more broadly. I like it all....

A MEDITATION Empty. Light. Faith. Empty. Light. Faith. The original, 1970s-flavor, of Star Wars is just Buddhism in space. Star Wars,...

ONE VERSION Cancer came back. Breast. Metastatic. Stage iv. Dog died. Sudden. Stroke in your lap. Pandemic hit. Job went to Zoom. Job...

AND ALSO what has happened has happened. pain is impossible terrain on which to find proper footing much less dig. make of the dirt a...

BROKE First the lightning, then the cancer, and of course the dog died, and then the pandemic, and the accident, and then the divorce,...